Day [42]
here i am, with the intention of making you touched again.. i'm afraid that when my work resumes in a wk's time, our daily lives will be affected..
i'm very glad and thankful to whatever you said to me.. i believe we have built a stronger bond after last nite.. i'm very sorry for making you sad.. truly.. deeply regretted..
what you have done for me... as if like a plant... conrtibuting oxygen to the environment.. silently.. expecting just a little water and sunshine everyday.. i'm the environment.. taking everything for granted.. i can't even provide the water and sunshine you asked for.. am i realli worth your love??
but from now on, i'll not wanna be the environment, taking everything for granted.. i'm gonna be your koala bear.. and you'll be my tree trunk.. i'll provide warmth when you are cold, my fur will absorb your tears, shld it rain.. and you, just being you, has provided me with the enormous energy to carry on with my life..
i'll tell you now, how much do i love you..
when everything around me, makes me think of you.. when everything that i have, has a picture of you.. be it my com, my bed or even my mobile.. everywhere has you.. and i'm not frightened.. in fact i wanna put more additions of you.. i think of you like uncles thinking of striking 4-D.. everything i do, i'll wonder if u're doing too..
everytime when you smile, i felt as if even if i'm going to die in the next min, i felt i've died a happy man.. every tear you shed for me, i felt my nails clawing myself.. i have a neva-felt devastated feeling.. every laughter you made, i felt like i'm the happiest person in the whole world..
we had our ups.. so do we have with our downs.. i hope our downs will not make us feel hopeless about our future.. but rather, we'll work hard.. i got my porky while you got your turtle (prone to tears).. even as i'm writing this, i wonder if u're taking care of urself..
ppl may have tell you they're willing to wait a lifetime for you.. but i dun wan.. i dun wan to wait a lifetime.. i want you now.. i want you to be by my side.. if i had waited a lifetime, by the time, i wanna enjoy my time with you, i wud have already entered the coffin.. so i want you now.. so i can enjoy a lifetime of happiness with you.. not waiting a lifetime.. but enjoying a lifetime.. with you..
i may not be the perfect guy in your eyes.. but i will.. i may not be the smartest.. but i'll be.. i may not even be the most romantic guy.. but i'll do.. everything... just to be with you.. everything.. i can live without anyone in this world, except you..
i wanna enter everywhere with you.. enter the secret garden together.. i'll fulfill our wishes to build a garden next time.. may not be big.. but still, our very own.. i'll enter the catholic church with you.. ur long-time dream.. i'll enter the Uni in UK with you.. and i'll study hard.. so that i'll pass your parents' expectations..
i wanna work so hard for you.. saving every cent for you.. dun wan you to even have a day of sadness.. not even a day.. i wanna be there for you.. everytime.. no matter where i am.. as long as i'm in the same country as you, i'll reach you before anything.. pls trust me..
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