when a person doesn't return ur call, perhaps she is busy..
when a person doesn't reply your msg, perhaps she is busy..
when a person doesn't care anymore, perhaps there's no more feelings..
it was still all abt him.. finally realised i was nth but a "spare tyre", as what most ppl said.. many asked me to leave.. i kept my faith.. in her, in us and in myself.. i just came back from the girl's blog.. i now realised many things..
many a times, when i realised things, i always kept quiet.. i tend to pretend..
"Where can I find faith in another relationship ? Younger guys ? Please leave me alone. I am sorry with this statement, but this is how I feel now. hurt.. very hurt."
"Do I miss him ? Yes, I think so.. "
quoted from her blog.. i was left in the rain.. i realised i was.. when you kept the faith of someone, you believes that she is getting ready to be on ur side, not sitting there brooding over the past..
actually, if i'm not wrong, hints are filled everywhere.. i was just too busy, too tired and too dumb to notice it.. yes.. i'm dumb.. i'm stupid.. and perhaps tat's y i can't even pass my basic theory..
it's only words, and words are all she has, to take my heart away.. i live in a relationship where only words are around.. no hugs, no kisses, no holding of hands shyly.. nothing at all.. i told myself, neva mind.. believe in yourself..
the first time i almost gave up hope on her, was pretty long ago.. but my heart softens easily.. i picked up the faith once again, things seem well.. but now, my girl is not in a relationship.. then....
am i........................?
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