*blows*
wow.. it's been a long time since i enter here.. lots of dust and unkept grasses.. tulips dying of thirst and weeds shooting out.. but it's alrite.. cos rite now after all my field camps, i've more time to tidy up the place.. afterall, the place is now quiet and peaceful.. no more laughters, neither is there anymore sadness..
it's just a place without love and without any soul.. it's just me alone.. i'm deciding to open up this garden to others so that ppl can read abt all the memories of a couple.. or i shld say, an ex-couple.. i realli enjoy this place alot.. it's where i reflect my own mistakes or how badly i treated her.. but as i said, i'm alrite.. i'm happy now..
someday i knoe.. this will be the best decision i did for the both of us.. rite now, of course there will be tears in my eyes, but when the time comes for me to knoe that she's living her life well out there, i believe it's the day that the sun will come shining for me again.. but for now, i'll just like to sleep back in this familiar place where the smell of her and the tulips will accompany me thru this period..
though this is a short entry only, but i'm beginning to start appreciating many things ard me.. for things will not last and nothing will last forever.. rather than dragging it till the candle totally disappear, i rather i end it while it's still burning.. though it's flicking wildly now, symbolizing the end of it's short life, i'm contented that the candle ever did burn..
yup.. and now, it's time to start cleaning up the area.. gonna bring more stuffs in as time goes by.. congrats to her.. and a gd bye hug for her..
*hugs*
*wiping off tears*
i'm fine,
really..
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